When You Save Me

You saved me yesterday.

You made me laugh more than I have in a long time and gave me something to hope for. I felt whole with you, like how I used to feel. I did not feel ashamed of the things I did or the things I said. Even when I managed to mess things up, I knew it would be fine because you were there to hold me together.

Now in the morning of the next day I am back to where I was before. I can still feel the happiness of yesterday lingering, but it is in the background of the pain of now. I feel as if it were all a dream. A dream in which I was someone who others wanted to be around. Someone worth knowing.

I need you to save me again. Every day I will need you to save me from the world and myself. I fear that I may fall apart on the days when you are not there. But I cannot always depend on you to pull my out from my hole of darkness; I must figure out how to depend on my own strength. Until then I will just have to hope that you are near.

When will I be able to save myself?