When?

When will I cross into tomorrow?

When is no longer today?

Where is the border of time to the future?

When will I stop being a child?

When will I be and the adult I was promised?

Who decides if I am old enough to be my own keeper?

When will I find that special someone?

When will I no longer be alone?

What will tell me if we are meant to be like all the stories of love?

When will I find my reason for living?

When will I know why I'm alive?

Why is it that no one has the answers to life?

The Question of Time

Shall we stand in the shadows of tomorrow

Or shall we peak into the light of today?

Will we fight for the causes of next generation's strife

Or leave it for the younger ones to figure out themselves?

Should we prepare for other days' prosperity

Or find some of the simple happiness now?

Is it worth it to change what the future may hold

Or to wait for that time and let it happen as it may?

Is the time ahead more important

Or should we live in the moment?

Remembering the Present

Have you ever zoned out by remembering the past? It could have been reliving a memory or just thinking about small pieces of past. When you finally wake up from that memory it seems as though you have jumped forward in time. Everything had just felt so real in your mind. There was nothing that set it apart from what is actually happening. Only when you wake up do you realize you had slipped into your memories.

What if everything you are experiencing now is just another of those memories? Your present self is actually years ahead, sitting frozen, staring into space. Others around you are wondering at your sudden silence, but you cannot hear what they say. Your mind is back in the past. It is just a matter of time before you wake up and go back to the present.

If what we feel now is just a memory, it shouldn't matter what we do now. It has all already happened, so the choices we make have already been made. The "future" is already decided from what we have already done. Nothing we do will change anything, because what we do has been factored into the true present time. We can just sit and watch our past selves make the choices that affect a later time.

It boggles my mind to think as if this were the truth. Everything would be easier if it was. The problems I feel would already be over and solved. But this is not the truth. I must continue affecting the future and trying to solve my problems.

Or perhaps, that is what I remember believing.