Fuzzy Friends

Making friends is great. Friends are necessary parts of our lives. Personally, I value my friends more than anyone could ever know. But even knowing this, why is it so easy to lose touch with someone that used to be so much a part of my life? In half a year my closest friends become a distant presence, and when we meet again, it is like having to remake the entire relationship.

The reason I am separated from people is usually because of a school change. Just moving from middle school to different high schools creates a gap between us. Ironically, we still live in the same places we did before, use the same telephone numbers, and still are the same people. Still, no matter how much we want to stay together, our friendship seems to fall apart. Why is it so hard to maintain the relationships you love the most?

What brought this topic up is that recently i met up with a friend that I haven't seen in a few months. Though it was only that short amount of time that I hadn't seen her, somehow we seemed to be mush farther apart then we should have been. Perhaps it was that my mind had been concentrated on other things and had kept me from thinking about her. Perhaps it was that I had made so many new friends. Whatever the reason, the feeling between us when we met was not what it used to be. It seemed as if she was a fuzzy picture of herself when I tried to look at her. I wish we could be the way we used to be.

In the end, my friend and I both pretended that we were the same close pair we always used to be. We ended up having a good time despite the awkwardness that existed between us, and even regained a little of the friendship we had before. I realize now that part of the distance between us was my own fault. I stopped e-mailing as frequently as I had before and I hadn't invited her over even once. This time after we part, I will try much harder to keep us close.